The past couple of weeks, my head has been buried deep in thoughts….about this blog. I thought of how I started, when I started and measured the growth. NO, it’s not encouraging at all. I started this blog not seeking out for […]
The past couple of weeks, my head has been buried deep in thoughts….about this blog. I thought of how I started, when I started and measured the growth. NO, it’s not encouraging at all. I started this blog not seeking out for money, fame or prestige. I just wanted a platform where I could bare my mind, express myself freely and use my God given talent.
In the early days, I got a whole lot of positive feedbacks from friends and colleagues. I also wrote my best articles during those times(wordpress testified to it in their yearly summary to me). Since 2012 till now, I get almost zero comment on this blog. I actually don’t know who reads my blog. I am not sure I have an audience. I know a few loyal people who message me from time to time but asides that, I hardly see feedbacks.
Get me right, I am not seeking for applause. What i’m saying is; do I actually have an audience? Are people interested in this blog? Are they okay with the content or need some modifications? Am I just writing for myself? Most days, I actually feel i’m writing for myself. If that’s the case, closing this blog entirely won’t be a big deal.
Interestingly, some amazing people follow this blog. Some people who know me but I don’t know also do. Some are here to sneak a peek into the author’s boring life. I don’t mind whatever brings you here, but can’t you just drop a comment even if anonymously?
I enjoy writing on other blogs more than here and I even became more active outside than here. Yes, because I was raking in over 100comments, sometimes 50, 60 etc both positive and negative. At least, people read and responded. I had an audience.
Having an audience makes writing fun, makes the job easier, makes it enlightening. I need more ideas. Seriously, do I have the wrong content or I just write too badly or my supposed audience is angry with me.
The blog clocks four on the 28th yet we are not going to roll out the drums. I am sad because I have been writing in the air. If not that wordpress tells me people are reading within and outside Nigeria, probably I would have closed the blog earlier.
I planned coming out with my book to coincide with the blog anniversary this month but my spirit is watered down. That work is still on hold. I deliberately stay on long breaks and tell myself ‘at least, no one is reading. They won’t miss me. But I come back when someone comes me from a remote part of Nigeria and says ‘what about the blog? That’s all the energy and encouragement that brings me back.
If you are reading this blog right now, let me address you directly; why don’t you use the share buttons on the blog? Why don’t you share on bbm, twitter and facebook? Why don’t you post a comment? Am I that bad a writer? How do I improve myself if you don’t give me a feedback?
I am tired of doing it myself, I am tired of being lonely on this blog. I just needed to rant. There, I got it off my chest. I can go to sleep now.#stillconsideringpullingdowntheblogentirely#